When I Get Lonely

My reality tends to blur lines with my dreams,
I tend to see things that are only visualized in my subconscious,
Yeah, at times it makes me obnoxious,
Maybe it’s my toxic trait,

Or maybe I’m just lonely.

You’re the visual that prances into my optics,
Though in it’s infancy,
it waddles in and out of my thoughts,
As if it’s a sport to run through my mind,
Hopefully it clears the hurdles placed in its way,
Maybe then we reach the finish line,

But it’s only when I get lonely,

That I have the time to to give these thoughts any attention.
It’s a whore for it,
I just don’t pay for the space it takes in my head,
The room and board is free,
So it shows up like uninvited guest,
I guess, it’s to torment me,
But maybe it’s to give me hope,
That one day, it’s just you and me,
With no rules,

Just us two,

But it’s just thoughts I have listening to songs that remind me of the moments,
The moments I’ve seen in my future,
Designed like a new a dress,
Everyone wants the picture,
Though no one understands the work it takes to create such stunning optics,
But I do,

But only when I get lonely.

And only then I see you,
The woman of my dreams,
Dressed in all white,
Family and friends happy and smiling,
Me holding your hand expressing my deepest feelings,
It’s then that I know,
That all of this happened for a reason,
It’s then though that I realize,
That in due time,
Everything I dream will be seen,
Including you,
But it’s only so many times I think of it,
And you,
And though it may seem selfish,
Just know you’re the one I envision being next to,
Being the best to,
Giving up the rest for,
I’m sure you understand,
But it’s only because you,
Yes you,

You get lonely too.

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